C'est la vie .. Gimme a break!

Life is getting tougher by the day and I am going crazy by the hour. So much to do and so little idea, rather so little of all those things that it takes, to do what I had long planned. This is surely not the kind of life I had expected to be living when I joined this company and was exhilarated to see my name on the final list of placed students. The chill that ran down my spine then is still fresh!
Hardly had I imagined that location of posting can play such a major role in the coming years. I am stuck up at this place in a remote corner of one of the BIMARU states of India, in a township which inhabits not more than 300 souls. The nearest city or a town to this place is nothing less than 200 kilometers and the township roads are deserted after 9 in the night.
Some of my colleagues at work surprisingly find this place to be an all-enriching experience for the heart and mind away from the hustle and bustle of cities, no trace of pollution and greenery all around. I am disinclined to acquiesce to this pathetic rant.
Working in shifts has also taken its toll. It is more like living life in some cutoff part of the world where you don’t get to see familiar faces for a long time. My weekly offs coincide with Saturdays or Sundays once in 2 months. So, the holidays get even lonelier with not even colleagues around. The best cuisine that is on offer is one at the countryside dhabas and McDonalds and Pizza Hut ads on television are like adding salt to injuries.
But then I resort to one of the most sought after words in times of despair, C’est la vie. That seemed to work pretty well for a few days but even that sounds like one of the most redundant and stupid things to ponder over now.
I bought myself a DSLR thinking that maybe this lonely, so-called peaceful and extravagant greenery would have something to offer on that front. Guess what, this place sucked up to that task in not more than over a couple of months. Come World Cup, IPL or a new season of Roadies or Splitsvilla, nothing seems to lighten my mood. Guess the dent is becoming so indelible with time that beauty in anything what-so-ever is far from noticeable.
I made some great new friends in the company but I was made to believe that certain relationships were attributes of my childishness and naïve perspective of looking at life. It feels like such a slap on the face when you are made to understand that all you have been thinking and doing is, perhaps, immature. Such conversations gave me something to mope upon for a certain amount of time and then it was even more depressing to be at this place.
So I decided to work on the plan I had forged for myself back in the college days. Get through with graduation with a decent CGPA, find myself a job, work for a couple of years gaining some worthwhile experience (hardly any though!) and then find my way through one of the top MBA colleges thereafter.
With Facebook deactivated, Gmail Chat turned off, Cell phone always on silent or switched off mode, the only thing that is keeping me going right now is, perhaps, visualising myself in one of those elite management colleges a year from now.
Let’s see how that works out!